It’s that thing you can’t stop thinking about. The thing that gets you out of bed in the morning. The thing that never feels like work because you love doing it. It’s a part of who you are, what you feel called to do and a deep passion burning to fulfill your life’s purpose.
It’s like your soul is on fire.
You may have felt its presence your entire life or perhaps it recently ignited a spark within you. Whenever it happened, whatever it is, you feel very strongly that this is why you were created and why you were put on earth for a time like now.
It’s more than something you enjoy doing, it’s your purpose, your reason for existence and your contribution to both humanity and the broken world we live in.
This has been on my heart lately because I feel like my soul is on fire for both the Lord and for serving His purpose for my life. But, and this is a big BUT that has been my point of frustration, exhaustion and disappointment lately, I’m feeling that He’s telling me to wait. Specifically, I feel like God is telling me to pause, slow down, and enjoy the moment.
He is going to use me both in the present and in the future but right now He has me exactly where He wants me and doing exactly what He planned for me to do. Because I believe this to be true, the Spirit can contain the blaze of my fire.
I feel like God is reminding me daily that my current life situation is simply a season. Like the four seasons of weather we experience every year, this too will pass. The difference, however, is that the season of young motherhood will come and go in the blink of an eye and once it is gone it will never return again.
[Open the flood gates!]
I am overwhelmed with emotion – joy and gratitude for being able to care for my children full-time, resentment for not enjoying the gift of early motherhood 100% of the time, frustration for wanting some “me-time” to pursue God’s purpose for my life, and nostalgic sadness that this beautiful time raising littles will one day (quickly) be over.
I know my time will come. I trust in my heart God has more in store for me other than being a stay-at-home-mom and CEO of my household. But even if He doesn’t, even if this is all He has for me, I will be eternally glad and thankful. I will count it all as big and wonderful blessings because my life is so full of a joy that can only come from my Lord above. My season is hard, yes, most definitely, but it is also so incredible. I trust this season is all part of God’s purpose for my life and truly, I do enjoy where I am right now. Motherhood (and every other season of life) is all a part of God’s bigger plan and that plan is always perfect.
Our Creator designed each one of us for a unique and specific purpose. No one is exempt from His greater plan but we do have the choice as to whether or not we want to live a life of depth, fulfillment and eternal purpose or a life that is surface-level, empty or focused on temporary fulfillment. You may be in a season of contemplation and confusion, of pause and silence, of awakening and disclosure, or of inspired, burning passion – wherever you are, whatever you are experiencing, I hope you will be encouraged that there is a reason for your season.
I pray you will start (or continue) seeking the Lord with all of your heart. Read the Bible daily and come to know and trust God, who He is, and what He is capable of. Studying God’s Word and communicating with Him through prayer are the best ways to develop and grow a relationship with Him. Plus, it will open your heart to accept His message and receive His command, guidance, and direction.
So is your soul on fire? If not for your purpose, then for the Lord? Sweet friend, have faith and be patient. God has remarkable things in store for us and this world needs each one of God’s children to answer the calls He has for our lives. We must never lose hope or trust but rather should continue to pursue the Lord and allow Him to direct our steps.
“Each of us has one body with many parts. And the parts do not all have the same purpose. So also we are many persons. But in Christ we are one body. And each part of the body belongs to all the other parts. We all have gifts. They differ according to the grace God has given to each of us. Do you have the gift of prophecy? Then use it according to the faith you have. If your gift is serving, then serve. If it is teaching, then teach. Is it encouraging others? Then encourage them. Is it giving to others? Then give freely. Is it being a leader? Then work hard at it. Is it showing mercy? Then do it cheerfully.”Romans 12:4-8 (NIRV)